Been A While

Hi everybody. Alot has happened since I last posted. I went to the doctor for my nerves and anxiety, and have been put on a treatment regimine. I am very happy for this, I have noticed such a change. I still have my bad days, but not nearly as many as I used to. Brenden turned 5 on July 2. I can't believe it. And school is starting I think on August 21st. I am so nervous, for him, and for us. Husband and I have worked out a schedule, Ejay will take him to school, and I will pick him up. I also recently started a new business as a Pampered Chef consultant. Please email me if your interested in the Pampered Chef, tyanneh@hotmail.com . I am very excited about this, my first show is this Thursday, I really hope that I have all my products and everything together in my head.
Well I guess that's it for now. There is so much more going on, but I am getting tired, need to make dinner for the kids, and get them to bed.

Much Better

Wow, the last several months, I have just been down in the dumps. But I have to tell you, I have felt so much better lately. I have no idea why. But I have been happier, I am playing with my kids more, we go outside alot, and are connecting better. My husband and I are connecting better, although, we have always had a good relationship. But everything has been better lately. I am excited about Ejay's new job, he has been home on time for dinner every night, except tonight, cause he was late this morning, and had to go to the bank on his lunchbreak. But still everything seems to be better lately. I hope it stays that way.

What do I do?

Okay, two days ago my son set the recliner in the living room on fire while I was taking a shower...I knew something was up, cause they were being quiet so I got out and my chair and part of the carpet was on fire. Don't know how he did it, it was a safety lighter for the fireplace, and he must have climbed up the table or something to reach it cause it was on the mantle behind a picture. Anyway, after I put it out and made sure he and Bella were not hurt, I spanked him, and put him in his bedroom, he knew he was in trouble bad, he cried himself to sleep, Ejay came home, and we both talked to him. He knew what he did, and that it was bad, and he, or Bella or all of us could have gotten hurt. So What do I do? What did I do wrong that he is so roudy, and misbehaves, and I don't know what to do anymore. I am so lost. I need help. I thougth maybe the spankings aren't working, so today when he ran away from me cause he didn't want to come inside after I let him play outside for an hour, I locked him in his room for a time out, Yes, locked, cause if I just sit him in the corner or in a chair, then go to take care of something for Bella or something, he justs gets up and starts all over again, anyway, after I put him in there he starts throwing an even bigger fit and banging and throwing things at the door, I told him he had to be quiet to come out of his room, and after about 15 minutes or so he knocked on the door and asked to come out, then we had a talk, again, but more calmly or his part about why he had to go to time out, and he has been pretty good since. So maybe I just have to do that, I don't know, truly I don't. I have to do something, cause he can't act like this, especially at school, and he starts kindergarten in August....gosh, think about all the principals phone calls I'm going to get....I'm tired, I'm stressed, I feel like the worst parent ever, and I don't know what to do anymore, I'm just lost.
Help....and I don't need any negativity, I already feel bad enough.

Sad, but Okay

Well, today I got my monthly visitor...I know nobody wants to here about that. But was a little sad. See last week we made the decision for husband to get a vasectomy. And he had it on Monday. Was kinda hoping we would have an Oops :) in between times...but nope. But that is fine, we have two beautiful, happy, healthy children, and I am very thankful for that. And I think we made right decision, birth control completely makes me sick and mental, and the kids take all of our energy as it is, I think we made the right decision for two to be enough.
Anyway, that's all for now, was just a little bit sad, but that's okay, like I said, we are already so blessed, I don't think I could ask for anything more.

what?

So, Brenden's comes in the other day and goes to his room. Comes back out and says "Mom you need to clean my room, it's a mess." What? I, need to do it? HUH? The boy is a stinker, and sweet, and cute, also a BIG handful.

What?

Friday The 13th...continued

Well, went to lay down cause am not feeling to good today, put a movie on for son, and put daughter down for a nap. When I got up a little later, there is red koolaide all over my living floor, coffee table, oh...and my clean laundry basket. :0....but I'm not mad, just resigned to the fact that today is just going to suck.

Friday The 13th

Well, today has totally sucked so far, and it is only 7:45 am where I live...Maybe it will get better. (Not with my luck) :(

Xmas Fun

Well, the picture of Brenden is on Christmas Day, he got a remote control truck, among about a hundred other things, Bella got all kinds of stuff too, but I think she liked getting into Mommy's paper towels the best. :)
Just wanted to post a couple of pictures. Hope everybody likes them.